Still healing.

Time, that's what all I need. Or maybe to keep myself away from what's happening around me.

Need to do something to keep myself occupied.

Setback

Whenever I encounter any setbacks, I will just break into tears. And the amount of tears that flowed out determine how deep it has hurt me.

I know there's always ups and downs in life. It's never perfect. There is always a second chance.

Well it's easy to say.
I need alot of time to recover from it. Like really alot.

Whenever I am alone I will start thinking of it and all the negative thoughts will just come. And it will somehow link to other stuffs and the situtation will just get worse, inside my mind.

This is damn unhealthy. But what to do, I just cant let it go so easily.

I am a good-close-to-perfect example of a worrywart I guess.

And probably a good stress-induced machine.

Sometimes I wonder if I am I taking things to seriously.

I really want to understand myself better. I think I still dont.

-- I think I get affected easily by how people will comment on me, be it good or bad, or just a passing comment. Why care right?? Maybe I am not brave enough to face it. Or I have been avoiding it and remained ignorant for the past few years. As I always believe, ignorance is bliss.

On a side note, cause of all the stress and worries, I lost 2kg within a week. How powerful is that.

But I rather not lose that 2kg. Things would be different. I will be happier. Oh wells.

Adventurous

Every meet-up, there will sure be food involved.

And I'll be eating and eating.

Then, gaining more weight. Sigh

Last friday, jinwei's strong craving for steamboat brought us to some steamboat buffet at bugis.

Forgot the name, but the food there have limited variety huh. The fish is nice though.

Went to illuma after that, chilled at coffee bean all the way till 11pm plus.

The guys just couldnt stop talking about their NS life. But kinda interesting to hear them share the experiences in Tekong.

And that's how I learn all the army terms.

Next day, Meng Seng and I decided to check out Henderson Waves.

Using only ipod touch to browse google map, we somehow made our way there from Vivo.

For the benefit of those who want to go there but couldnt find the place, here's the guide!

First take 145 from Vivo's bus stop. Alight at the 5th stop.

When we alighted, I was still lost, and thought that maybe we have to walk a distance before we can see it.

Suddenly, Meng Seng shouted, "eh look up!"

That's the henderson bridge!

Then, you have to cross the road and climbed up this LONG flight of stairs.

Almost died after climbing up these stairs. Too long never exercise already. But all these are worth it cause the view up there is awesome :)

Lots of photoshoot taking place there.

Taking shade from the scorching hot sun at one of the sheltered areas.

So this is henderson bridge!

Lol like doing some advertorial like that.

Next stop, KTM railway! :)

Reminiscing

Went to checkup early morning 9am at national heart centre for my heart murmur thingy. Yes that far and i have difficulty pulling myself out of bed!

And thanks dear for accompanying me there too <3

Did the scan and doctor said nothing serious, still can jump around like some crazy girl haha.

Met 4/1 for dinner at Astons :)

2 years plus ago, they were all posted to MJC and I am the only one in TPJC.

Now, they are all going to NUS and i am the only NTU there. Got so coincidental not!

Had dinner there and the two NS guys forever talking about their NS stuff, and they seems to have endless new topics to talk about.

And the girls just enjoy our food first hehe.

After dinner, went to viewing mall to do lots of crazy stuff huh.

And actually, darwin came back from London also!

Completed first year now moving on to 2nd year of uni after his holiday break know.

While we've yet to start our first year!

Nvm, the guys still have 2 more years to go hahaha.

And lastly, ah hong!

with her newly cut short hair. Nicer leh!

And why NTU never accept her?? Sighhhh

And my eyes are like so puffy in all the photos! :(

Those carefree days are gone.

Decisions have to be made once again, and hopefully the right one.

When there's gain, there's something that ought to be lost.

I fully understand what it means now.