Setback

Whenever I encounter any setbacks, I will just break into tears. And the amount of tears that flowed out determine how deep it has hurt me.

I know there's always ups and downs in life. It's never perfect. There is always a second chance.

Well it's easy to say.
I need alot of time to recover from it. Like really alot.

Whenever I am alone I will start thinking of it and all the negative thoughts will just come. And it will somehow link to other stuffs and the situtation will just get worse, inside my mind.

This is damn unhealthy. But what to do, I just cant let it go so easily.

I am a good-close-to-perfect example of a worrywart I guess.

And probably a good stress-induced machine.

Sometimes I wonder if I am I taking things to seriously.

I really want to understand myself better. I think I still dont.

-- I think I get affected easily by how people will comment on me, be it good or bad, or just a passing comment. Why care right?? Maybe I am not brave enough to face it. Or I have been avoiding it and remained ignorant for the past few years. As I always believe, ignorance is bliss.

On a side note, cause of all the stress and worries, I lost 2kg within a week. How powerful is that.

But I rather not lose that 2kg. Things would be different. I will be happier. Oh wells.