Is it really difficult to stop doing something that you've been doing in the past, just for someone?
Even if that person do not like it, you're still finding chances/ways to satisfy that need of yours.

Have been wondering if anyone still come to this space of mine. Haven't been blogging for a long period of time cause of studies (and partly due to my laziness haha).

9 more days, I will see myself in a terminal that I have not been there before. Being away from my loved ones for 19 days. But, I will be out there, together with 34 other hallmates to leave an impact on the kids in Philippines. I don't know what would happen seriously. Questions like: "Why I able to adapt to the environment, that's less urbanized and without proper sanitation facilities?" - People who know me well know that I can't stand dirty toilets, and MOSQUITOES. "I think I'll be homesick." - That's for sure, taking into account that I do get homesick when I am in hall. 


Nobody knows what exactly would happen, not even the chairpersons. 
It will be a new challenge for me to step out of my comfort zone and experience the different side of the world. 
I hope I can do it.
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Holidays have been a rather chill one for me. Waking up naturally and doing my own stuff at my own pace. Spending time with boy for almost everyday brightens up the day too. Speaking of which, I will definitely miss him when I am away. :/ Keep a lookout to this space when I am away k!

Spent meaningful time with my dearies, doing this that we have never done before.
The first time we...
1. Traveled overseas together - Bangkok was damn awesome!
2. Sang Karaoke - A session for us to let loose ourselves
3. Played around at Sentosa! - Yes, for knowing each other for almost 6 years, we haven't been to Sentosa together before.

Too many pictures taken to be posted here. Shall skip this step hehe.

Thoughts

Been super busy with all the projects and presentations lining up, followed by quizzes and submissions and all. Who's the one who told me uni life is easy?

Stayed in my room the whole day today, completing my parts for projects.

Concentration really drains all my energy. I just feel like sitting here and watch tv. But not possible to watch tv in hall!

And this made me started to think of staying in hall next year. Talked to my groupmate yesterday. She stays in Seng Kang and I stay in Sengkang too. But she dont stay hall.

So i asked her, how can she endure hours of journey to and fro NTU.

Shared with me her experiences, the things she do and before we all know it, she has been doing that for almost a year.

That kept me thinking. And I missed home the whole time yesterday haha.

Oh wells, blogging now to replace that feeling of wanting to watch tv. Like no link huh? Guess I just wanna a break from my studies.

Meeting the people that I havent met for quite some time this week! More catching-up ahead :)

Within a short period of time, I realised that many things around me aren't what I have been seeing on the surface.

Every movement, every actions, there's a meaning behind it. Be it to be on purpose or accident, you will start to see it from a different perspective.

And, it will be hard to revert back to original.

I am starting to believe that I have been living in my own whole world since (i dont know when).

When you start to realise that things aren't as simple as it is, it hurts.

I choose not to show it, cause I believe the smile on my face can heal everything. But apparently, not. Deep inside, my heart's fighting. With what, I have yet to find out.

But I just know, I have to stay strong.

Waiting for 11.20am and I will make my way down to North Spine to have lunch with Tricia.

First lecture of Sem 2. Time to focus!

Feeling a little homesick last night and keep looking forward to thurs (my lessons end at thurs, 2pm :D ). The result of staying at home for the whole of one month holidays.

I need my holidays again!

December

On my way on the train to meet the girls and Ms Leong for dinner, had sudden small sneezes that interrupted my music.

Suddenly, the guy sitting beside me was frantically digging for something out from his bag. I took a small peek at his actions.

Then, he passed me a piece of tissue paper.

In Singapore, this is rare.

Met up with the girls later, sat at Mac and talked about many issues happening now.

There are really some things that can hold a girl to a guy, despite the uncountable wrongdoings that he had done, or even those that are really unbelievable and yet, the girl can tolerate him.

First time I am speechless, and when I am speechless, it's really serious.

Later, Ms Leong finally came and joined us after not meeting up for whole 2 years!

Did some catch-up and also mentioned about what happened.

One sentence that Ms Leong said and I think it's really true.

"When even your girlfriends tell you that he's not good, he's really not worth your time."

Got it??

Yeah, meaningful 4hours spent with the girls.

Some pictures that describe my dec holidays.

2011 is ending real soon.

And I must say, it was an awesome one.

I can feel that my period is coming, which means pain and cramps will tag along as well.

Oh man, the feeling of anticipating something not good is horrible. You wont know how badly it's gonna hit you or how nice it will give you.

Ahhh pre-pms syndrome now?

Please, dont be like last month cause i practically just lied down and curled up on my bed for the whole afternoon, pressing hard on my womb, or whatever you call that.

Days since the start of holiday - awesome.

Have been sleeping whatever time I want and waking up naturally. Going out to places that I have never been before and the experience was good. Meeting up with friends that I havent met for a long time was nostalgic, seeing how things have changed over the years.