Within a short period of time, I realised that many things around me aren't what I have been seeing on the surface.

Every movement, every actions, there's a meaning behind it. Be it to be on purpose or accident, you will start to see it from a different perspective.

And, it will be hard to revert back to original.

I am starting to believe that I have been living in my own whole world since (i dont know when).

When you start to realise that things aren't as simple as it is, it hurts.

I choose not to show it, cause I believe the smile on my face can heal everything. But apparently, not. Deep inside, my heart's fighting. With what, I have yet to find out.

But I just know, I have to stay strong.

Waiting for 11.20am and I will make my way down to North Spine to have lunch with Tricia.

First lecture of Sem 2. Time to focus!

Feeling a little homesick last night and keep looking forward to thurs (my lessons end at thurs, 2pm :D ). The result of staying at home for the whole of one month holidays.

I need my holidays again!

December

On my way on the train to meet the girls and Ms Leong for dinner, had sudden small sneezes that interrupted my music.

Suddenly, the guy sitting beside me was frantically digging for something out from his bag. I took a small peek at his actions.

Then, he passed me a piece of tissue paper.

In Singapore, this is rare.

Met up with the girls later, sat at Mac and talked about many issues happening now.

There are really some things that can hold a girl to a guy, despite the uncountable wrongdoings that he had done, or even those that are really unbelievable and yet, the girl can tolerate him.

First time I am speechless, and when I am speechless, it's really serious.

Later, Ms Leong finally came and joined us after not meeting up for whole 2 years!

Did some catch-up and also mentioned about what happened.

One sentence that Ms Leong said and I think it's really true.

"When even your girlfriends tell you that he's not good, he's really not worth your time."

Got it??

Yeah, meaningful 4hours spent with the girls.

Some pictures that describe my dec holidays.

2011 is ending real soon.

And I must say, it was an awesome one.

I can feel that my period is coming, which means pain and cramps will tag along as well.

Oh man, the feeling of anticipating something not good is horrible. You wont know how badly it's gonna hit you or how nice it will give you.

Ahhh pre-pms syndrome now?

Please, dont be like last month cause i practically just lied down and curled up on my bed for the whole afternoon, pressing hard on my womb, or whatever you call that.

Days since the start of holiday - awesome.

Have been sleeping whatever time I want and waking up naturally. Going out to places that I have never been before and the experience was good. Meeting up with friends that I havent met for a long time was nostalgic, seeing how things have changed over the years.

Misses

Exams over! (a few days ago) and I am still as lazy to blog.

Hongye came over yesterday and we started to do crazy stuff again. Miss her alot!

And also the other 2 who are still busy with their school work. Soon soon, next year May/June! Bangkok is waiting for us k ;)

A month worth of holiday, trying to find something meaningful to do. But I got this feeling I will just lie on my bed and slack a substantial amount of time off.

I guessed this holiday I will be stuck in Singapore since there is no signs of news from my parents that we're going overseas.

Sigh, bus fare increase, cab fare increase, food prices increase. The government is forcing us to stay at home.

K I being a typical Singaporean now.

In a meantime,

Christmas is coming soon! :D

那些年，我們一起追的女孩

Watched You're the Apple of my Eye yesterday.

A long time since the last movie I watched, and the first time a movie has left a deep impression in me.

Everyone, you should go watch. Even though it's chinese, you should, still, watch it. It will bring out the cheena side of yours. ;)

Watching it brought back lots of memories of the mundane schooling days, especially the JC days. The little things captured in the movie can just bring back tons of memories. Well thats true for the girls POV cause I don't think, and choose to remain thinking that, our guy friends dont do the things they do in school lol.

Having a crush on each other - it's just so sweet.

11.11.11 - I bet I am the most underdressed girl to walk into the cinema, with just an oversized orientation shirt and fbt.

Last day of sem

3 weeks more and I will go crazy.

What is a relationship?

- I guess i dont really know

Exams coming up and busy with projects & presentations all day long.

I guessed that's what uni is about - less academic time but more time spent on preparation and work.

I cant wait for days like this to be over.

Holidays here are really a well-earned break you can get after 3months of studying and rushing projects.

I need a short getaway, off from this stressful environment. But I dont think I am brave enough to travel alone.

Bumped onto Peiqi a few days ago and she asked "Why is your blog so dead?"

I told her that I am gonna close it or ignore this space here cause I really dont have the time to manage it.

Actually, blog isnt a chore that you have to update frequently. It's a space where you can put all your real thoughts in, and you might feel better after that.

And that's what I have felt today.